It has been a week! We have been battling the "crud" that's been going around. After three days of fever, my child is back at school - worrying about how the day will go with all he's missed. Someone said that in high school when you miss a couple days it's like missing a week, and I agree. He has two upcoming tests - one today and one tomorrow - for which he is not prepared because he wasn't in class for the review. But it will work out.
While my child struggles with this, I'm struggling with my own feelings of inadequacy. Your children's teenage years bring this on - am I making the right decisions - am I picking the right battles - have I set the right parameters - am I over-reacting - am I too lax.....the list goes on and on and on.
I think Satan likes to jump on the bandwagon when we're struggling. This morning was late start day at the high school, and since I didn't want Drew walking in this wind after being sick, we waited a little later to leave the house. With time on my hands, I looked around my home - bad idea. Ya'll, I am absolutely the WORST housekeeper. There are clothes on the floor that need to go to Drew's closet (now that he's well, those can be put up today). It's been 2 weeks since I've vacuumed - had a "date" with my husband last weekend. I can't tell you the last time I've swept the garage. There is "stuff" everywhere. I make resolutions to do better, and I don't. I need to get rid of things I don't use, because I have no storage space. I literally put things in the mud room closet and slam the door, hoping nothing falls out! I apologize when people stop by...but the thing is, it never changes. My house looks half-way decent for 1 day when I clean, then it's right back to how it was before.
The theme of my pity party today is "Why can't I change?" I want to do better --- but I always fall short. Why can't I follow through and have a good house cleaning? Why don't I take the time to pull things out of closets and cabinets and discard?
I was getting ready to go on and on about this, but I think you've heard enough and I've said enough. You get the idea. Anyway - if you have good pity parties, let me know. We can battle them together.